So my boyfriend and I started opening our relationship up, sexually, not too long ago. It was a bit rough at first but I think we’re doing great now. I’ve only slept with 1 other guy and he has yet to bed another woman. In many ways, this open realtionship has been a blessing. We’re both more aware of our physical appearance and work hard to keep it up in the eyes of others. We are doing a lot of self-improvement work and trying to widen our social circles. Basically it’s forced us to get out of our apartment and start living our lives in a more balanced way.
Speaking of self-improvement, a friend of mine from work introduced me to a book called The Way of the Superior Man: A Spiritual Guide to Mastering the Challenges of Women, Work and Sexual Desire by David Deida. It’s a book written for men, but I find it fascinating anyway and it helps me understand my boyfriend and other men a lot better. The author mainly speaks about sexual polarity and how it’s disappearing in today’s politically correct culture. We’re supposed to smooth over our differences and become more alike instead of embracing our differences. For example, women hate making decisions in general and men are great at it. So if a woman asks her man, “Hey, honey, what shoes should I wear tonight? The red or black ones?” and the man replies “Whatever you want,” he has failed her. Instead, he should say “Well I like the red ones, but whatever makes you happy.” This way he isn’t controlling her, but merely guiding her. And if most women are like me, then they would enjoy a man who will be just that – a man…in the most primal sense of the word. They would melt at being ravished, being swept into powerful arms, being spun around, being dominated. Anyway, I could go on and on. It’s interesting, haha.
I’ve been working out consistently for the past two weeks and I might be hallucinating, but I think I’m actually starting to see results. My stomach doesn’t stick out as far (although it didn’t really stick out much before lol) and my legs look a bit more trimmed. Now I have to just keep going until I get the results I want. I’m close..so close, but any day I could just stop going and lose all my progress. That won’t happen; I won’t let it!
Well it’s time for a shower and bed. Work tomorrow. Oh well while I’m talking about work, might as well mention that because my major is unrelated to my work, I might not get converted to a permanent position after my student internship is over =/ I really appreciated the salary, benefits and insurance stuff I got there, but who knows…maybe there’s something better in store for me? We’ll see…
Goodnight!
